It has been awhile since you and I have had a chance to chat, hasn’t it? You probably thought that I didn’t want to speak to you anymore. That’s not true! You and I are friends and friends should talk. I’ve been so busy with work and school and school and work that I find it outright nauseating to sit down in front of the computer for pleasure. I get so distracted by the 8 foot tall stack of bills piling up on my desk that I can’t seem to make time to relax anymore. If I stop spinning the work wheel for just a second, it may all come crashing down on all of us. And then where will we be?

The most frightening thing in my life right now is that I sort of forgot why I went back to finish my degree in the first place. It seemed like my business was picking up, classes started back, and my business fell apart.

I find myself having to intentionally breathe deep breaths at least once every fifteen minutes or I pass out. There’s a Rob Bell Nooma video about that. We should watch that together. By deep breaths, I mean that I have to make a God-connection quite often or I start to trust my own momentum and think that I can live apart from Him.

My worship confessionals stopped for a very intentional reason, by the way. Someone I served with didn’t share my passion for constructive criticism. My heart was to be critical where it is critical, but that was interpreted as being divisive. These comments might be interpreted as being divisive. I don’t look for fault in things, but I certainly can’t overlook the obvious. In ministry, and in life in general, some prefer to spend their days like so:

Something that I used to meditate on that have popped back into my mind:We must constantly beware that the work we are doing for God does not interfere with the work He is doing in us.

“Sleep. I never get enough. Always waking up tired.” - Riley Armstrong

Time to get some sleep.